finally mine

Yay, I get another hour and a half to sleep tomorrow. Today. Whatever. Real sleep plus short shift equals happy Mel. Now back to the grind. sigh.

Dena asked me to come in early tonight. so that's fun, 12 hour shift ontop of a 6 hour shift. whee.

I want chinese food. I want it hard. I also want to see Kung Fu Panda, and am wondering if I can have both of these before 9pm. hmmmmmm. it would be a THEME.

I finally bought Amanda that shirt she wanted. Go me! it only took me nearly a month and a half. >_>; eheh. I should buy Jess something for her birthday, since its. um. Tuesday. I don't know what she wants, tho D: I wonder if a gift card would be lame? x_x; It'd probably be okay if it was for Hot Topic or somethin, right?

have you ever been scratched to bleeding by a cat on a sunburned area of your body?

I don't recommend it.

I don't know how, but I think the Jenny from work (one of the people I take care of) knows I'm gay. Like, in an okay way. She has a basic understanding of 'when you like someone, you want to hug/kiss/date that person'. Basically every day she talks about kissing her boyfriend Roy, who she works with, and wanting to sleep over at his house. Today she and I were looking in a magazine for sexy dresses she could wear if she and Roy got married, and she pointed to one of the models and said, "You want to kiss her?" Donna laughed from across the room, the way you do when you think something is ridiculous, but I giggled and told Jenny "Well, she is pretty, but I don't know her." and then steered her back to finding a dress.

It was kind of great, in a completely surprising way. I mean, I have no way of knowing if she actually knows that I like kissing girls in a serious way, but I thought it was cool that she asked.

Shit but the drag queen on the train was fucking hot. Mmm

Wow. The bitch who refuses to speak to me is watching Bill O'Reily. Big shock there. Oh and go see Hancock. I MEAN IT BITCHES.

D:

I went to write when the reunion was on my calendar, and the first thing I saw on the August page was grandpa's birthday, and now I have a sad.

( also, a good pic of me from last night )

My body is hating me lately. not only am I on the rag, but I seem to have some kind of weird cold or allergies (so says Jess) or something, and for a few days now I found that rubbing my left eye hurt a little bit near the inside corner. I decided to look close up just ten minutes ago and realized that its because there was a small PIMPLE right next to my eye. Ugh. At least that's all it was. v_v Its not half as annoying as my nose is being, though.

I guess they're finally erecting the pool at my parent's house. Brittany told me (as in, didn't even pretend to ask) that I'm coming over to help with this. I wonder when I'm allowed to sit around and relax at my own apartment, because I seem to never be here. When I am I'm usually asleep, and then I have to get up and immediately leave again. I mean, I have no food here mostly because I'm never here to eat it, and I feel bad when I have company over because of that. Not that I have many instances of people staying over, but that's entirely beside the point.

The funny thing about all that is that the pool is going to take pretty much all day to put up, and then probably all night and part of tomorrow to fill with water and chlorinate. So I won't even get to swim in it unless I spend my entire weekend at my parents'. *sigh* I guess I can't be too upset about not being in my apartment if there's a pool to play in, though.

I need to think of something awesome to do for Andrew, cause he was totes awesome last night and bought me dinner and a drink when we were hangin out with Jessi. I think when I get monies I'll treat him to sushi or something. Aaaand mebbie a lil somethin somethin for da Jessi too, if she sticks around till Friday. XP

I kind of realized at work tonight that I'm sporting a weird Keira Knightly-in-Pride-and-Prejudice hairstyle almost. As soon as the picture I just took gets to gmail there will be proof. or something that you can disclaim me with. whichever.

Jessi is on her way to grandma's (where I am) to get me :O HOMG SURPRISE VIZITZ.

Also, there is a large bag of snow peas here and I just about orgasmed when I saw them. I'm going to shell them into a huge ass bowl and then eat them by the handfuls much like one eats popcorn, but faster and with no kernels sticking in my teefs.

ooooooomg. Dena told me today that I can bring my princess music to work and play it loud enough to be heard in the other room because Suzie needs to hear different kinds of music every so often so NEXT MONDAY THERE IS GOING TO BE MEL BELTING PRINCESS SONGS FROM HER SING ALONG SONGS DVD THAT SHE LOVES VERY MUCH AND DENA AND POSSIBLY BRANDON ARE GOING TO LEARN THAT SHE'S A TOTAL LOSER BUT ITS OKAY CAUSE PRINCESS.

PRINCESS.

yeah. hyyyyper. peas + jessi + princess songs = mel losing her sanity. just a bit.

David Sedaris' new book is both awesome and disappointing because I've read most of the stories in articles already so I'm like, D: NEW STORIES PLZ.

I'm really sick of having the "Dad is NOT A HOMOPHOBE" conversation with my mother. I don't know why the fuck she keeps insisting that he is when I asked him straight up to tell her he isn't, to her face, and watched him do just that. Christ, mom. The next time she tries to pull that bullshit I'm going to just scream "HE KNOWS I'M GAY AND I'M HIS FAVORITE, MOM. THAT'S HOW I KNOW." in her face and see where it gets me. ~_~

Amanda described her pancreas as a lazy mexican, and mine as an unsatisfied girlfriend who yells at me that she's leaving until I get my shit together. lol

today was a really good day at work. Laid back, and everyone seemed to be really happy today. It was like the planets aligned. Tomorrow will probably suck twice as much, but... its nice to go to bed feeling good.

OH, and the IRS sent me a letter saying I'm getting $488 for that stimulus payment. Hells yeah.

I let a guy at the max stop use my phone. I couldn't hear what he said because my headphones were on but he was sniffling when he gave it back D:

*ringringring* Oh hai Mel, will you work 19 hours tonight/tomorrow cause ALL THE FUCKING STAFF CAN'T STAND EACH OTHER?

Sure! No problem!

I have to keep reminding myself that I'm better than my coworkers, and my problems with the one who can't stand me are small and not worth fighting about. If Brandon quits because of the one who can't stand HIM, which he threatened to do today, I'm going to whine and throw a great big hissy fit in front of everyone.

this is the weirdest aim spam I've ever gotten:

dickless000 (5:11:33 PM): dear bellehiver, legomymalfoy is going to blow up the turkish parliament and kill abdullah gul the president of turkey for the liberation of her fellow child pornography traffickers

seriously, wtf? and why? o_O mystery.

mom and dad took me to see Wall.E last night. It was amazing. I'm gonna have to see it about five more times. That's with: Brittany, Brent, Becca, Kuhlman and if she's in town before it leaves theaters, Jessi.

its good to be home so I can walk around naked and masturbate again.

I'm a little bit pissed off. I'm at this little kid birthday party for a boy that I know pretty well, but since all his friends are here I don't have the actual opportunity to play with him, and in no way am I going to be leading the children's party games. No no no. That's not why I'm mad, though. My sisters, and I think Tay and Brent asked me a bunch of times if I was gonna be here, and I didn't even get the OPTION of going home after work this morning, so here I am, sleep deprived and learning that hey. NO ONE IS FUCKING COMING. Except MAYBE Nicole, but she has work for another 2 hours, so I can't be that mad at her. But still. I did not want to spend my day in a room full of people I either don't know, don't really want to talk to, or have no time to talk to because they're running around being hostess. Grrrrrr. I feel esspecially pissed at Brittany right now because this morning all she told me was "I'm waiting for Julianne to call me" and then I wake up and mom tells me SHE WENT TO THE FUCKING BEACH. That deserves death. Red hot pokey death of firey badness.

I'm gonna tear Brent a new one if he doesn't show up at some point.

I can't even go back to sleep, because there's no quiet in the house, anywhere. *sigh* I should have tried to go with the twins to Sommer's birthday thing. v_v Not that I was invited or anything.

I guess I'll go watch a movie or read a book or something. I'm not gonna go out in the 110 degree heat to sit around bored, that's for fucking sure.

Oh, oh, and to top it off? There's this EXTREMELY hot woman here that looks around my age and that I'm not related to, omg, but she's married with kids. v_v Fuck.

I'm not sure if its all in my head or what but it feels like all the older guys are checking me out today. Its making me uncomfortable.

okay, Avenue Q. Fucking incredible. Even Brittany had a good time XD that's how good that musical is. On the walk back to the train I kept wanting to sing all the songs but I knew that if I did she would hit me and tell me to shut up because I dunno, she hates it when I sing anything, basically. She's weird and angry but I still <3 her. hahaha I wish that I had money so I could buy a t-shirt or something. But alas, no money, etc etc. that's what the internet is for anyway, right? XP plus I'm pretty sure I'll make a point to see it again in NYC sometime, and this time get front fucking row seats because watching it from off to the side is pretty lame. Not TERRIBLE, but lame. This is how I feel about any live performance, actually. See it from the front, in the middle-ish, or for concerts on the floor, or don't fucking bother. Except this time I had to bother because that was literally the best I could get because I waited A WHOLE DAY after the tickets were put on sale. Stupid me :P

today I watched the last two eps of Junjou Romantica and they made me all swoony happy, and then I watched In Bruges and I pretty much decided that if Colin Ferrel were to hit on me while wearing glasses, I would stop being a lesbian long enough to fuck him proper. >_> For serious. I'm gonna probably buy the DVD of In Bruges and make my dad and Brittany watch it, because its SERIOUSLY AWESOME. Like wow. Shit. Yeah.

It has been a good fucking last couple of days.

Kuhlman made this weird comment about my nails yesterday, because I painted them with that hot bright fushia-y nail polish that I bought because Jessi told me I should. When he realized the color they were his eyes kind of bugged out and he expressed his shock that I would do that to my nails, and when I asked him what was wrong with it he said "Nothing. Its just, like, woah. Mel." I'm not entirely sure what he meant, but it seemed like he was trying to say that the color was out of character for me. Which now makes me want to wear it all the time. >_> Because I dunno, I have this weird self-loathing thing about me. I love myself, but I also think I'm fucking boring, so whenever someone thinks I'm doing something not me, I cling to that and try to make it something that IS me because I desperately don't want to be my definition of me. Sounds like nonsense, but I swear its all kinds of logic in my head. :/

edit:

I remembered that I can take screencaps. :P

and also, my hair is long enough to put into a ponytail. this is not okay. HAIRCUTS TIME NAO. D:

umm. wait. since when did I own the DVD of Broken Hearts Club? *scratches head* I remember that being too fucking expensive to buy. which was why I only got it for gifting purposes.

Touche magic DVD case? o.O;

Wow. A sugar free koolaid substitute that doesn't make me wanna die. I should get a case of this shit.

Diana needs to go throw herself on a fire. I'm seriously done with her shit.